Mudo's Blog

I turned Christian, my life was so messed up and I figured id idolise a guy who wore a bath robe and had a beard, heck if we idolised everyone who did that, hobos would all be messiahs, religion is a fucking joke, end of story, christians, get over yourselves

Now time for true blogage

I work now, full time, go me, good job at Harvey Norman, go discount, I like it there, work with good blokes so it's all good, lets see what else, hmm thats pretty much it

Thats all for now

Well, where do I begin? Blog blog blog

The End

Thank you

P.S - Just read other peoples blogs for a true update, I'm far too lazy to type up a months worth of stuff

Why, tell me the reasons why
Try, still I don't understand
Will I ever feel this again
Blue sky, I'll meet you in the end
Free them, free the memories of you
Free me, and rest 'til I'm with you

A day like today
My whole world has been changed
Nothing you say
Will help ease my pain

Turn, I'll turn this slowly round
Burn, burn to feel alive again
She, she'd want me to move on
See me, this place I still belong
Give chase, to find more than I have found
And face, this time now on my own

Days disappear
And my world keeps changing
I feel you here
And it keeps me sane

So I'm moving on
I'll never forget
As you lay there and watched me
Accepting the end
I knew you were scared
You were strong I was trying
I gave you my hand
I said it's okay letting go time to leave here
And I'll carry on
The best that I can without you here beside me
Let him come take you home

The day had come, April 28th, it was time for Lamb Of God. Words cannot describe them live, compared to the shit of the supporting acts they were like gods on stage, the vocals, the music, the crowd, the atmosphere, it all just came together in a big fucking heap of good times and a memory that will last for quite some time. The mosh took it out of all of us and by the end, all you could do is just lean on the person in front of you and try not to fall over. Lots of memorable moments, but I'm still too fucked from last night to go through it, my neck is killing me from headbanging way too hard and for too long, my ears are still ringing and I am just out of it, but if I could do it all over again, I would in a fucking heartbeat

As the title suggests, you think this blog would be about my last 2 days (being tues/wed) and you would be correct in asumming that, so here goes nothing chief

Tuesday: Tops of a day, massive sleep in, bludged around for god knows how long and then finally went out to the city to meet up with Jess after work, plan was to see a movie and then get the fuck out of there, but because of stupid time schedules and stuff, we were stuck for an hour with nothing to do, so it was agreed we go to none other than City Beach (big wooh) where jumpers and use of such jumpers were discussed and shoes were bought, thankyou gift voucher, moving on from there Jess decided she was hungry, I wasn't but she insisted I eat so I had a bowl of chips and a beer (got to love the perks of being 18), dinner was downed, at an incredibly unwomanly pace may I add coughjesscough. Before we knew it, it was time for the movie, TO DISTURBIA!!!! cheap tickets and free food we were in, talk of porn and real estate came up and then the idea of porn set around a real estate agent "Wanna buy a house" "Fuck me" classic, the movie however was just incredible....incredibly shit that is, took way too long leading up to it and the ending was uber rushed, Hitchcock would be ashamed, we left, bummed around while waiting for buses and took an uber mad photo that just put all others to shame, said our goodbyes and went home, where I met an awaiting Brendo who was dropping off his gift (woot for Bass tabs) champion, after some time and reminising it was bed time, Fade to black, bring up title shot that says "Wednesday" fade in

Wednesday: I awoke with a call from Yankos asking if I wanted to go to the Vale for some early bird drinks or the casino, finally decided upon casino having never been there before, lets just say, the casino is the shit and then some (yank may not be so compliant) had a bit of a tour before setting at the blackjack tables (fuck poker, $100 buy in, limit, fuck that) spent a little bit backing bids before a new table opened up, grabbed a beer before hand and jumped in, I was on a massive hot streak, got 21 4 times in a row, Yank couldnt believe it, eventually after a while we were both up, I had doubled my $50 so I cashed in for an easy $100 while yank played on, used my loose change to buy a mckenna bourbon and they are all class, make woodstock look like piss, moving on, I come back to a yank whos on a losing streak, he was $60 and somehow got too greedy and lost all $100, went to the roullete table to validate his card, joked about where the ball would land "Yank says red 25" ...it lands on red 25, spewin mate, yankos got another $60 out to try and get his $100 back from the Big Wheel, many unnsuccesful attempts later, Yanks lost $160, now learn from this kiddies, quit while your ahead, headed back, stopped off at Vale maccas, bumped into Chris Crenician who told the cashier lady that yank was ben cole and got him a cheap meal, I on the other hand paid full price...fucker, got out of there, hit the bottleo and then went home, where i just lounged out. But all in all, it was 2 great days.

Now I just have work tommorrow and then the Footy on Friday, hoorah

Where do I start? I know with a "LAST NIGHT WAS FUCKING AWESOME!!" and that doesn't even describe it properly, lets go back to the start shall we.

The night begun with a pickup from yankos with benji and kyle, off we went, swung by the bottleo and I got back into the mighty form that is Canadian Club (Mmmm, Mmmm, Good). The karaoke had begun, I don't even remember the songs, but we were belting them out as we headed off to Cleavland to pick up Tiana - Do Ya Wanna, we ended up getting lost and having toask for directions, yanks on the phone and we end up on the topic of AGBs, after many laughs, singing, random banter and shitty Audi drivers, we got to Tianas, met her parents again who still remember and love us. Loading into the car Tiana broke a CC and it went everywhere, it was funny at the time but I shall never forget that drink and it will be in my prayers tonight. Moving right along, making the way back to Benjis, already having gone through 3 drinks, pregger skills were not being utilised, so Benji and Kyle both had to leap out of the car into a bush and slay the mighty dragon (well not so mighty for some). More randomness and my bladder urging me to unleash fury in Yanks car, which was very tempting, eventually got to Benjis, I made a mad dash to the slash box, ended up finishing off the 6 pack while playing Tekken Tag, buttons were mashed with many sayings of "Cake". Dirty Bastard arrived and we were on our way, waited for Brendo and Yeatsie who had just started drinking and wanted another 30 minutes, so Yankos stayed behind and we trooped on, made a quick detour to Matts place (Benjis other uncle) made use of his toilet and on our way, first stop off Irish Murpheys, got a quick beer there and left because Benji wasn't liking it for the lack of CC, then to O'Malleys, which was fucking tops as, met up with Brendo, Yeats, Davo and Damien and it began, this is where we discovered the true glory of Bundy and the HOT PROMO GIRLS (well girl) and we got free stuff (after buying a bundy rum of course) I won a hat after much talking they just loved us and basically got every stalker who came near to fuck off, it was great seeing kyle buy 3 rums so he could get all 3 gifts and random guys come back like 10 times, thanks to Brendo who scored me a key ring with the classic "wheres he gonna put the keys to your heart", many drinks were had and this is where Yeats introduced me to the Long Island Ice Tea, which was fucking classy and we were off on our way, to the next Bar, the Embassy.

Mel, Dani and Claire here after their Chilli Peppers stint, so was good sharing my awesomeness with them, I was really maggoted by then, tried to dance with Mel, but I both know I looked like a goon standing there doing shit fucking all, I had momentarily lost use of my arms and legs, so I gave up and headed back to my drink. After there me and Breno went to Club Phoenix while the others went to the Mustang I think, anyway Club Phoenix was awesome $5 cover charge (worth it) and we got in to see a drunk Yeats with his metal of a ex girlfriend, sure we were out of place in our awesome striped shirts, but fuck it, songs were requested, pool was kinda played (I know I'm hopless at it Brendo) double shots of Bourbon were consumed and this is when the best thing happened, the song I requested came on, WOOOOH for Megadeth and Peace Sells, Brendo, Yeats and myself instantly jumped to the dance floor and started headbanging and air guitairing, no one else joined in though They don't know the true glory, it was getting late so we headed off to the Mustang before lockout, saw a near passed out Yeats who looked like he was gonna blow chunks, hit the ATM on the way for quick cash drawout, talked to some randoms, some douches who didnt want anything to do with me, like seriously, who wouldnt wanna celebrate my 18th with me, but there was this alright random guy who talked and walked with us, finally we made it, apparently I needed to summon up all my sobriety mode skills off to get in because the Bouncer is an apparent dick...lets see how it pans out.....

Brendo passing on all his knowledge to me and I felt ready, walked up to the bouncer in what I hoped was a straight line, handed him my ID, he asked me how I was and I gave the traditional 'Good mate' and headed on in, turning back to see a suprised Brendo walking in after me (I should give thanks to early drinking and sneaking around unknowing parents) Headed upstairs and met up with Benji and Kyle, ordered another Long Island which go down too well and then hung out there until we had to go downstairs, talked to some random blokes, what happened in there was blurry as I was quite maggoted, but before I know it we are leaving to go home (<3 blackouts) on the bus we went, I sat next to some random who seemed uncomfortable with me, so I wanted to make it a shit bus ride for him, just annoying the crap outta him really, he even asked me to move, I was just like "nah I'm sweet here mate". Got off at our stop this is when I realised I got off the wrong stop with Brendo, stupid drunk not knowing what bus he was on, anyway, quick stop off at the drive through to maccas, asking if they could open up so I could pee, they said no so I ordered a Bacon and Egg McMuffin and walked off past the Vale, quick slash and the journey began, long walk ahead of me with my thimb stuck out most of the way, near the Kamaruka (however you spell it, place where Dominos and Liqorland is) some old guy stopped, I was just stunned, someone would actually be that kind, I love it, anyway it was some champion of a guy who was going fishing, he dropped me off at the front of my estate, I gave him directions to what I hoped was Logan and off I went, crash tackling through my front door and onto Shadow, stupid dog and waking up everyone in the house, but seriously who isn't awake at 5 in the morning on a Sunday, honestly people and then I headed upstairs and crawled into bed.

All in all, it was a great night, best I've had, I went through $110 which went way too fast, it was like I was at JB Hi-Fi, just thanks to all that came out and made it memorable, and someone give me the link to the Bundy swap team site, I want to see how maggoted I look in the picture

Well, with a 6 pack down and feeling crook as hell while I lay in bed watching the sun rise over 7 hours, I wasn't liking my chances of getting through work in one piece, but come 5.30 my luck turned around, I wasn't tired at all and felt like I could run a marathon, so headed off to work, good hour went by nothing exciting just deadlocked traffic as usual, got into the store did the usual opening routine only to find out there was about 6 things to do that day over a period of 6 hours, lets just say I finished all my work in the morning, went walkabout for a hour for lunch, should have chosen to dine at a better subway that knows how to not burn the sandwhich, oh well, it was still marginally good and I got a foot long for the price of a 6 inch because they fucked it up.

Upon returning to work, I busied myself with doing shit all on the work laptop (shitty computer card games rock..). The trucker comes around and so I'm thinking I got an hours work ahead of me...3 pieces of furniture on the truck...that was it, it's like God himself wanted this to be a blessed day for me, so threw that shit into the warehouse, had a chat with John, made a few bets over games, Broncos better not lose to the Warriors or I'm fucked, he buggered off, I went on another walk, got bored and headed back, sold a table, read a book, had a look at the time and it was 6.40, finishing time in 20 minutes, so I headed off to the Jean shop where the hot chicks work at and they were funny and fun as all fuck, so hung out with them for the remainder of the time, trying on pink shirts and hobo hats and the occasional wiggles children shirt, discussed crappy children cartoon one liners that were actually gold, eg "Swiper no swiping" tried to con them into giving me the pink shirt, purely for shits and giggles and yeah had to head off, forgot to get some numbers but they will be there next time

Thats pretty much it, been up for 23 hours, not tired so I might go and run a marathon

Benji, Lt Dan and myself, doesn't sound like it was up to usual Shack standards..it wasn't, It surpassed it! Started off with Lt Dan picking me up, having already cracked a Woody, I was just getting on my way, drove to Woolies with some unnsuccesful Tokyo drift and random banter while Benji got booze, then it was a quick detour past Maccas and Shell, where Danman almost stole a Chomp from the blind servo chick while I drank my booze and tried pulling off a sober mode, arrived at the shack, 2 woodstocks down, we met up with Benji and headed down to the shack with the accoustic guitair and other such, started off with music blaring more random talk and drinks being downed, before we knew what was going on we were plastered and heading to Shell because Lt Dan wanted some green chicken. The walk up was fun, barriers being knocked over, more engineer abuse, we arrived at Shell and pulled off a sober mode while Lt Dan didn't quite make it, not being able to microwave his roll while me and Benji deliberated over what to eat, finally the choice of kettles chips was chosen and the best walk back ever started, finished off our roadies and made a new game 'Stealthy Sus' where the object of a game was to wait until a car saw you and then dive into bushes and hide, best fun ever and then bolting past the sus light and into the construction site, destroying the barriers and making use of the non existant pre dug out toilets, this is where the fun begins, we had found the valley of death, benji n lt dan trecked through it while I added to the death by chucking a slash in it, this is when they found the horrors of the bog where Lt Dan almost lost his $150 shoes. Was that the end of it though? No, we then got lost and went by the Creek of Doom which we smartly passed but then got lost in the Field of Snakes, so we had to backtrack, I found our way using my awesome navigational skills of the Shackland, what was this, an obstacle in our path, holy shit it's Mt Jaggerlot, the most treacherous man made mountain known to man, we somehow managed to climb it's mountanous peaks and then the path of destiny was followed besides the plains, got back into the shack and this is where the guitair came handy, improving songs about our journey while randomy strumming, although it's sad we didnt record it, but it was hilarious, you got benji singing to Numb with his chorus "$2.30, I died inside!" (in reference to the overcharged chips, nothing funnier then seeing Benji belt that out) Danman doing his rendition of Rage Againt the Machines - Killing in the Name of, which told of a sad story of getting a $150 shoe dirty and what not, then there was the Eminem cover that told of the mountains, it was getting pretty late, so we fired up the Nove Dance party, boy was that a bad idea, lets just say 7 planks where destoryed and the shack will never quite be the same again, I thought for sure I had broken my ankle which still hurts now, paranoia about bugs and spiders killing me in the night set in so we left, Danman walking home while Benji and I decided to take the short cut over Mt Jaggerlot and through the untamed lands of the Field of The Snakes, when you wade through chest high long grass while drunk, you're shitting yourself, especially when climbing over big snake mounds, finally made it over and found a clear cut path to Illaweena St, where Benji rode up it blind and stacked it around 100 times, finally made it where Benji and I parted ways after he tried racing a taxi, I was alone with a woodstock in hand and a guitair in the other, what to do, 2 in the morning after people wouldn't pick up their phones, I became a travelling musician, power strumming and singing as I strolled through the streets, headbanging in the middle of the street to my own song, all class, I then managed to get home and inside, tried to ride shadow unnsuccesfully, after MSN wouldnt work, I hit the hay couldnt sleep even with Iced Earth going, so went to the toilet, threw up and then passed out next to the toilet bowl, good thing I woke up before the parents and managed to make it to my bed before Dad got up

Betrayal

In the beginning things were so different
All I ever saw was you, nothing more
A person to count on
A person to trust
You took me for granted
Carelessly shattering my confidence in you
Is it all a joke?
Or do you just like seeing the pain in my eyes

Rumors spread around like a plauge
The pestilance of your words burn me
Every word out your mouth is a blow to my heart
Why do I always hand you the knife to my own demise?

You'll never see the harm you do to me, never see a single tear
You used to be there for me
What changed?
It wasn't me, it was you
It's always been you!

You took everything from me and gave it out like it was nothing
You've hurt me in every possible way
Why are you so suprised when I say I fucking loathe you?

I'll crush you with the same fight
There's nothing to hide, nothing left to say
It's turned into a spiteful war
I become what I hate, I've become you

Look at what you've reduced me to
A shell of my former life
Does it make you happy, does it make you proud?
That I'm now no longer part of the crowd
This is what I have been reduced to
This is my last gift for you

FUCK YOU!

You'll never see the harm you do to me, never see a single tear
You used to be there for me
What changed?
It wasn't me, it was you
It's always been you!

It Comes Down To This

“No, my last final wish was not to be so
I have been given another chance
Another chance to make this life worthwhile
Driven by a new found sense of hope”

A flash of white light blinds me
Concerned faces looking down on me
Telling me a prognosis I already know
The time to decide is now

Needles in my body
Constantly fading in and out
Each day brings a new struggle
The time to decide is now

I was once lost in myself
Aimlessly wondering down a destructive path
New hopes and dreams appear on the horizon
Just out of reach, or is it?

Time to overcome this burden
A shadow of doubt flickers through my mind
Scared, hopeless, just a glimpse of what I am feeling
Can I do it?

My past comes back to me
Bringing a glimmer of hope
A smile across my lips, can it be?
Am I happy?

I will myself to push on
Struggle through the pain
Push myself on forwards
Nothing can stop me

I was once lost in myself
Aimlessly wondering down a destructive path
New hopes and dreams appear on the horizon
Just out of reach, or is it?

Reasons are forgotten as I don’t look back
The past is gone and my new future is near
I am strong enough; never will I give in again

Temptation once blinded me, now it lets me see the real me
I reach the first step in my life
Taking a deep breath as I begin the climb
One down, eleven to go

Why does this journey seem so hard?
Surrounded by people all similar to me
So similar yet so different; all telling the same story
Endless source of sympathy and acceptance

The days were once agonizing
Months felt like years, never felt like it was getting easier
Lessons learned about life; it isn’t meant to be easy
But once properly lived; it can be so rewarding

Rising through the steps to my new life
Looked up to by others
Becoming a role model for others
My new found determination became a source of inspiration

The final boost that helped me to my destination
Putting together the shattered pieces of my life
Started out seeming like an impossible task

But now it starts to fit all together
It all becomes clear to me
I was once lost in myself

Aimlessly wondering down a destructive path
New hopes and dreams appear on the horizon
Just out of reach, or is it?

I’ve made it

End Or Just The Beginning?

Awoken by a sharp blinding light
Confusion sets in as my memory fails me
Surrounded by an unknown pain
How do I overcome this?

Staring into emptiness, waiting for something better
Answers drift out of reach
Can’t seem to find that one final solution
Always forever eluding me

Living a lie or just a different truth
Perception lost to me
Everything is lost to me
Where do I go from here? Where is there to go?

Still not a part of this world
Met with resentment wherever I turn
Constantly being watched
How is it they can judge so easily?

Feel myself beginning to change
A void appears inside of me, a void impossible to fill
Uncertainty clouds my judgement
Time to fall back on the only thing I know

I stagger through the road of my life
Making every excuse I can
Don’t want to accept my fate
Don’t want to accept this life

Constantly hearing how I need a solution
Ha, don’t you know this is my solution

Living a lie or just a different truth
Perception lost to me
Everything is lost to me
Where do I go from here? Where is there to go?

No way out of this routine
Sinking deeper into my own misery
Denial sets in
Thoughts run through my head

Who gets to say what is wrong and what is right?
Why do I have to listen?
What do I owe you?
Nothing seems wrong to me

Yet all I see now is pain
People grow distant
Only one certainty, only one reliability
Familiar feelings rush over

Emotions momentarily kept at bay
The world passes me by, without a care
All I can do is sit back and stare
Faces pass me by, never looking into my eye

Sinking deeper into my own disillusioned fantasy
Forgotten by society, forgotten by myself
All signs lead to just becoming a statistic
Light fades from my eyes, this time it’s for good

Living a lie or just a different truth
Perception lost to me
Everything is lost to me
Where do I go from here? Where is there to go?

Nowhere

Faded Away

Why is it that I always feel this way?
Different feeling for a different day
How come things can’t be the same?
This life feels like a game

You make me feel so many things, yet you take them away without a care in the world
I gave you my all but you just threw it away
How could you do this – TO ME!?

Guided by determination
Hindered by manipulation
All I hear is procrastination
Get ready for my retaliation

Accusations follow me wherever I go, never see eye to eye
Thoughts run through my head and all turns to red
Where do I go from here, my final destination is lost to me
Question in my mind which I always have ask

‘Is it all my fault?’
Doubts over shadow me
How do I recover?

Guided by determination
Hindered by manipulation
All I hear is procrastination
Get ready for my retaliation

No answer can be found as to how I stop these thoughts
Delaying the inevitable is all I can do
Turned to isolation from which I never fully recovered
Sinking in deeper, turning my reality into fantasy

Things become blurry as a black slowly seeps in
Memory becomes a thing of the past
Stumble through this deluded fantasy
Why do I do this to myself?

Guided by determination
Hindered by manipulation
All I hear is procrastination
Get ready for my retaliation

I no longer see or feel
My mind falters me as my consciousness fades
Cares lost to me for the night
Waiting to delay them again

Why, what else is there?
Why, I still don’t know?
Why, just why?

Guided by determination
Hindered by manipulation
All I hear is procrastination
Get ready for my retaliation

Well it's been a while since I've blogged, lets see, so far just managing to hang in there money wise and thankfully still have a roof over my head, I have a few jobs on the horizon that may turn out to be promising, so fingers crossed aye.  Still a few more months til the big 18, so weekends are always a bit of a let down half the time, but thats to be expected, but once I hit the city, better watch out and if you see an ass in a pub, rest assured it will be mine.  I've decided I want a bass guitair for christmas, just so I have something to play in my spare time and play my emotions out, also depending on how good I get, me and brendo have decided to make/join a band, so if that works out it will be great.  Heres a heads up, when delivery guys come to your house, dont talk to them it leads to a 30 minute conversation about evolution and fossils with the chance of him coming back later to finish the conversation...splinters are also a bitch to get out and yeah, that pretty much sums it up.  So until I hear from these work places, I'll just be lounging in the pool working on my sunburn

I remember shit all of the party, just meeting Mrs Blacks daughter, being called gay and being woken up by Benji n Brendo in the early hours of the morning, great I missed New Years lol

Another succesful night at the shack, wait let me start from the beginning

I get a call from Benji, it seemed we were going to The Shack for a good session...again, 7.20 comes around and Danman is out the front, I can feel it in my bones that it will be a good night, get a msg from Benji asking where we are, I tell him we will be at Woolies in 2 mins, Danman prooves to me that he can make it in 1, we "drag" the people next to us, BECAUSE WE'RE FROM TOKYO BITCH! We then go to park by the civic, drifting around the corner in Danmans uber magnum, we park, get out to go to Woolies and we see Yankos running towards us because he thought someone was stealing his Civic, so he is shaking and pumped up on adrenalin lol, we get the grog, ice and we are off, a quick roadie and a race with the 'Black Bullet' (it got owned) and we were at Brendos, encouraging him to come out, which he eventually did. While Brendo and Benji ride to the shack, Danman and I take off our shirts and go to pick up Kyle from Sheep Station Gulley. Succesful pickup, stop by Danmans house for Kyle's platniums and to the shack.

Night started off as any other Shack night, alcohol being consumed, music being played, random banter, yankos came by and Danman greeted him almost naked, good times. We got some bodgy Woodridge Maccas, they forgot our BACON! But it was still delicious, more booze is consumed, then the traditional walk to Shell begins, Danman is para, abusing the 'engineers' for wanting to destroy The Shack, so he tried destroying their fence and faling into bushes, I figured I wasn't drunk enough, so I started downing the 3 Roadies I had, downed 2 by the time we got to the street, by then Danman was trying to kill signs and climbing light poles and attempting to urinate on the road, he couldn't, classic Danman really. I think I managed to catch up, finishing my last bourbon off after the fantastic chicken roll from Shell, which is when the passing out began, also trying to corrode cars wheels, sleep in bins and utes was discussed, passing out on grass and being dragged around, finding a mega excalibur that needed me and Danman to both pull out, which we succeded in doing, I raced Danman, but slipped on uneven ground and 'broke' (lol) my tailbone. More random engineer abuse and we were back at The Shack, the mood was tense, tea bag threats were in the air, I headbutted Benji in the stomach for trying to turkey slap me lol. Eventually Dream Theater went on, tea bag threats went away and we all drifted off into a sleep.

I awoke to find a possum on the roof, inside The Shack.....we had found Ernie, the elusive possum that tries to scare us off, after the screaming and hiding under sleeping bags, we realised Ernie wasn't active and was pretty safe to be around, so he was fed a shape and Benji wrote his name on the plank he was on. We eventually left after Benji throwing ninja stars at us, tennis balls and jumping all over us.

All in all, another great night at the shack, but the after-bourbon feel in the morning made me sad

Fuck everyone!

As Slipknot says "you are all fucked and overrated"

Alright, it's 3:30pm and I've just gotten up, so here is the weekend update that was promised

Friday: Average day....forgot what I did in the day actually, but the night rocked, I went to The Shack with Benji and Arab and I must say, it was a great night, started off with the traditional cracking of CC's and watching American Pie 2 (Shakes hands....SHAKE THIS!) and then the partying begun with music going off and random yelling...we were truely on our way. But what is a shack visit without the traditional visit to Shell, so we packed the Roadies and headed off, on the way there was random throwing of those white picket things and finishing off 2 roadies in 10 minutes, kinda fucked after that lol. Got our chicken rolls which were fantastic, unfortunately Jeff wasn't there to sell us our 50c cans that we don't want, instead it was some bitchy new chick who was angry at us for making a rucus. We finished the rolls off and headed back, there was pushing of baracades into water, pulling excalibur out of the rock, kyle falling off a "cliff" lol. Back at the shack, it was exactly what you would expect, an awesome drunken time! Ended up having an hours sleep then it was off to home to get ready for the coast

Sat: Headed to the coast with Brendo, Benji and Yatsie, went to Maccas first to overcome the night beforehand and off we went, I discovered Brendo's "sunscreen" was actually semen.....but it worked, too bad I didn't use any on my shoulders/arm/back/face (lol). The waves were awesome, despite the Jellyfish and the salt, lots of random banter and mucking around, which is too be expected. We went and got some milkshakes, which dont mix well with whiskey, lesson learned, then I was informed we were going to Ribena to go to JB, did I really want to spend $100? ...the answer was no, so I limited myself down to 2 Dream Theatre CD's for $10, hooray for Cameron, first time I havn't spent over $100 after a day out with Brendo, where are the pats on my back? Got a McFlurry, laughed at City Beach Emos and got out of there before Yatsie punched them, on the drive back, we tried catching up to the other Chazza with the two chicks in it, but they went the other way before I could give them my number . Got home, had a shower and got all the sand off me and got changed, this time I was out of the house and ready before my lift came! Which was a miracle, Benji was amazed. We went to get Brendo who was already trashed, asking random chicks the name of their dog, singing Sweet Home Alabama to random kids on a swing while hanging out of a window. Benji got a carton of Woodys to share with me, so we cracked one in the car, Brendo came up with the idea to call our "Members" after a female, he has Rachel, I have Hayley, just so we could say "I pulled Hayley last night", random drunk moments from Brendo before we arrived at Sizzlers, met up with everyone, waited around, got in, had some stuff to eat (despite the lack of hunger) random catch up talk with everyone and laughing as Brendo slowly sobered up, people left, some went to Bowling, which was meh, died down uber fast, bailed on the shack, so I got home, parents had friends over, turns out my brother didn't go anywhere that night and Rhys was there, they were both drinking coronas and playing some random hunt game on the Xbox, so I joined them and it was a fun drinking time, passed some time on the comp and then slept for waaay too long and now here I am typing this blog.

I will probably just spend tonight recovering fully and then when Jared (my cousin from Melb) comes over, we will drink the day and night away, good times ensure.

I will update with the very fun night at the Shack with Benji and Kyle, along with the fun coast times and Dani's thingy tomorrow, I am just too tired (only had an hour sleep) and too sunburnt to actually do it (Damn you Brendo's semen sunscreen)

Alright, here is the go, anyone who is free to come over Sunday early-late arvo (possibly night) and wants to hang out in a pool, play darts, other random crap and have a bbq, let me know because I will be hosting this for all interested, talk to me in msn or msg me to let me know if you can come so I can check on numbers and such, also if you want, I guess people could drink, not fully pissed, just a few drinks to lighten the mood a bit

2:10pm 30/11/06 benji edit:
Coming: Mudos, Benji, Brendo, Amy, Josh, Danman, Kyle, Dani, Mel, Lynita, Kelly
Maybe: Scott, Adam

Update 1: We are thinking those who want to join in on the bbq part maybe bring $5 and Mudos and I will get the meat. Or $10 and we will supply a few drinks as well like a few cruisers, beers and ccs. Times
Update 2: Early afternoon means 12pm, Late afternoon means 6pm so 12pm-6pm.

Alright, random blog title I know, but hey, it's been one of those kind of days so it fits. Moving along though, this is essentially a blog about certain emotions experienced mainly last night.

Beginning of Night : Joy/Happy/Fun

As always, this was to be expected drinking with friends with a party atmosphere, what could go wrong, beginning of the night started off great (details on Benji's blog) I was having a fantastic time. Just catching up with friends, sharing stories, random acts of Dip and Clothesline destruction and payage out of Brodies Samonella Chicken

Halfway Through Party : Resentment/Anger/Confusion

The mood slowly changed from the original upbeat tempo to the emotions listed above. (well thats what I was feeling, not speaking on behalf of others) Things were said and taken out of context, friends/brothers were insulted, which is where the anger comes in, I was on the verge of exploding if a certain individual said/did one more wrong thing. It was hard to enjoy myself after that, the mood didn't pick up and it left me sitting on some stairs just thinking. Later on I put myself on the line and still don't know where I stand, hence the confusion part But from that (mixed with my alcohol ridden mind) came resentment, which in hindsight wasn't neccesary, it just comes down to trust issues that I will have to work on, alot of things were said, alot of people accused and for no good reason at all, was just looking at someone to blame for things that have been building up for a while, it's like they say, if you lock things deep down sooner or later it will erupt at the worst possible moment.

End of Party : Tired/Not so Drunk /Mellow/Mild Enjoyment

By the end of the night, I had just gotten over it all, tried to make the best out of what I could, I put a positive spin on things in my mind, calmed down and mucked around, enjoyed myself more then what I was and had a smile on my face. The party died down as people went to bed and we spent 2-3 hours waiting for a cab.

Wrap up : Overall I enjoyed myself, will just have to sort out everyone I may have hurt/offended and just take the consequences of my actions like a man.

As the title suggests, my newly proclaimed life start has been put on hold, due to seek being ghey in the rectum, so until a position I can fill opens up or is in the paper (if you hear of one please contact me) I shall bum around depleting my money on booze, huzzuh

Also, thank you to brendo for making my blog sexier than Danman, and I never thought that was possible, until next blog, bye!

Finally figured out what I want to do for certain, I've been thinking recently that I want a job that I will actually like and can excell in, so I basically analyzed the subjects I did well in and also enjoyed at school..came to the conclusion that I will find a FTV based job, so basically I am going to pull my finger out of my ass, make some calls tomorrow and put togethor a portfolio, may even make a whole new storyboard and short film to keep me busy and to highlight what I can do and what angle I come from. Sadly this also means a visit to runcorn to meet up with Muzza, get a reference from him and some tips on FTV in general, maybe muck around with the video editing stuff seeing as though I am a bit rusty and just get back into the swing of things. So this is how I am going to do it

1. Look for a job
2. Failing that do a TAFE course
3. Work experience
4. If I can't find anything FTV orientated, look for MME related work/courses
5. Last option...do a traineeship

I will not settle for a medeocre job behind a checkout or moving furniture for a living, this is my turning point...well wish me luck, I start my new career path tomorrow

Also went out to Sizzler tonight, highlights were:
1. Stopping by mels house to look for her bag and then realising it was in the car
2. Giving incorrect directions to Sizzlers making us lost in Shailer Park before backtracking to Springwood
3. Getting Mel to pay for my meal, <3 mel, thankyou
4. Making it look like Mel enjoyed kinky sex.....
5. Cone eating competition with Benji....making me the winner
6. Getting pepper in my eye....best sensation in the world...and then washing it out with recycled water

And that was about it, or I was just ignorant to most things happening, but overall it was fun

Well, I was working with my dad today, as usual on Thursdays, got to love 10 hour shifts...anyway moving along with the story, it came around to lunch time and I had worked up a feed so I thought to myself "I'll go to Maccas, it is just down the road" so just walked in, had my iPod on and listening to some In Flames, as it came my turn to be served I fumbled around with my wallet pulling my keycard out and when I looked up......I saw the funniest thing ever.....the person serving me, well the FEMALE....had a moustache, I am being deadly serious and I am standing there gawking at her thinking "I should look away...but it's so hypnotising" god this thing was beasty, she has more facial hair then benji ever has...well thats not hard, I've seen 10 year olds with more facial hair then him, <3 you benji, you will hit puberty soon....and yeah thats pretty much it, I got my quater pounder and basically walked out there in hysterics

I have come to the realization that this dry spell is a bad idea, so I am officially ending it Sat night at Shanes party....maybe Friday depending as to what I do. But drinking just creates such a fun environment depending on the type of drunk you are, I like to classify myself as a fun drunk) and when you are around people drinking, just makes you want to drink and if you try to will yourself not to drink, just changes the whole mood of the atmoshpere and shit and you end up sulking in a corner instead of streaking down the street...well thats it from me for now

Alright, so I've been pretty slack about updating this, but what is the point when there is nothing to post, well anyway...it is my little brothers birthday party today so there will be a few little shits running around bugging the shit out of me, I think if I crank some Lamb Of God loud enough and start performing rituals....they will get out of here pretty quick. The dry spell is going alright so far, been sober for about a week and not really missing booze, saturday night though which will be a challenge, but if I get through this it will be easy, although you are all probably thinking "like we care?" in to which I respond "Hell yeah, you fucking suck!" so cop that shit. Thats all from me for now, so laters

/quit drinking kthxbi